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Friday, December 31, 2010

Last Post of 2010

i gotta be quick
coz its like 10mins before 12. haha.
so what am i gonna say?
well duh!!



i hope the last year had been good for you guys.
lets have a better year in 2011
is just a date that we can use to be as our turning point to something.
its just date that can change everything or nothing.
for me 2010 had been intresting.
now i hope 2011 is gonna be awesome
as its gonna be the big TWO-OWH on my next birthday
dang it.


oh well.
its just a number that i can live with.

im sorry for all of my mistakes.
take care everyone!

celebrate tu.
celebrate gak.
tolonggggglaaaaaaa jaga diri masing2x.
xmau kehilangan korunk.


the new ERA of A'ai Zairi begins..........................


Thursday, December 30, 2010

slesema is flu.....2

OKEH! flu sye smkn trukkk. huhu. its getting worse. huhu. maybe its because of the unpacking of the boxes that had arrived last Wed. hmm. maybe. dont worry. i had bought some medication for the flu. BUT! it somehow stopped working. weird? i know! d pharmacist said that its a sleepy pill. so yeah, okay. fine, its sleepy. the first time i ate it. a few moments later i was sleepyyyy and drroowwwwssssyyyy. (@_@) and that night i slept at 11pm. yeah! 11!!!! so i continued eating adn feeling sleepy. (and thus sleeping afterwards. ngee) but lately, i dont feel sleepy anymore and the flu is somehow worse! has it stopped working? haihs.

schools gonna re-open on d 3rd jan. huhu. im not ready for degree! or am i? urgh. feelingless. (>_<) OKeh, smkin tension and pelik. anyway! schools gonna re-open on 3rd so i goin back tmrw (31.12.2010) at 16.45 pm. huhu. i need to find a room to bunk later at the Uni. (@_@). pelik? yeah. alkisahnya begini. our IPG is somehow undergoing upgrade. so d first step is rewiring all the blocks. last semester it was Block C n currently its Block D's turn to move for the rewiring. bad news is, i duno who am i gonna bunk with for a few months! Dang it! haih. last semester, we had a guest in our room. my roomate's classmate. i ddint mind. but during her stay, there were misunderstandings and such. so my roomate couldnt get a bunk too! wait, this is getting off topic. haha. (putting in reverse) SSCCCRRRREEEECCCHHHHH!!!!! anyway! i need to find someplace to bunk!

so, where to? most of my classmates are Block D-ians. huhu. my bad for not expanding my wings to other horizons of friends. not my fault if they're a shut-in group and didnt like spending time or wavelength with teslians. (im not naming names or labelling anyone here ayte. im just saying). but set thngs aside. it is partly my fault. huhu. (okay! maybe mostly my fault). its nice to bunk in a dorm with some of the girls but is it available? truth is. its not. (@_@) so someone nominated the Surau of BLock E. i dont mind really. but, is it proper? we ar not d kind that is quiet or smtg. we r a noisy bunch if i had to say so politely. ergh! that is plan B. what is plan C?? find someone that is willing to take me in her room? who?! (>_<) i feel like living outside with my sis. but its a 30min drive! in the morning. I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON!!!! (>_<) stres2x. Plan E is living outside with my sister. haih. its a good idea but i hope it doesnt come to that. (yet)

*sniff2x. after a few days of kemas2x and unpacking the stuffs in boxes. the house looks like we just moved in. (@_@) honestly! how are you gonna fit a 2-story bungalow full of stuff to a 1-story bungalow? we've got loadddssss of stuffs. okay~ correction. mum and dad has a lot of stuffs. Mum has a lot of cooking stuffs that she rarely use. everytime that i say. 'buang la bnda tu, mama mne guna pun' mum would reply 'eeehhh~!!! mne boleh. dulu mama guna tau'. and here is where i go 'okay ma. u said it. dlu, mama guna. skg??'. then mama senyap and said 'alah, simpan je lah. nti pencen mama guna balik.' (=___="") addeehh. besides that mum has alot of glassware! really! she has 4-5 complete sets! OMG~ which she havnt even used yet. atoih. sometime during the unpacking. it came to me 'am i gona be like mom...?!' OMGGGG~!!!!! i shud start saving for a big house! ngaaa... (O_O) now to dad. dad has alot of this nostalgic stuffs like trophies, n medals n souvenirs from everywhere n anywhere from the world. its amazing! huh. and he has a collection of letters from i dont even know who! haihs. mum wouldnt let me read it. its somehow classified for me. pelik? yeah. i know.

owh. another thing that is a lot in this house. BOOKS! we have like 5-6 boxes of books only! say whhaaa..?? yeah. 5-6 BOXES. come to think of it. there might be more of em. hmm. that shows how bookaholic the chldren of Mohd Zairi and Wan Norziah. back at Penang we had TWO BOOKSHELVES that can place all the books but now we dont. so where do we put them? in shelves of course! but not together. we have 3 book spots in this house. haha. kinda funny when u thnk about it. haha. i love my books. iu really do. when i found a book that i had once read and it was awesome. i coulnd help myself in reading a bit of it. (even when i was supposed to be packing the things) urgh. its a gift and a curse to read fast. dang! two of the biggest bookaholics in this house is my sister and me. so, the books are kinda mostly ours. haha. i had already chose the books that i wanted to keep so im fine when dad said he wanted to give the books away. but then my sis wants her books too! (=_=") so yeah, i had to sort it out again. i think we had to give away at least half of the books. huhu. sad. :( hmm. but, most of the books are enid blython books and mystery novels. it aint my thing as much so. yeah. it doesnt bother mw much. haha. although, it hurts to see them go. :(

i think my tagline for 2011 is
'Pelik? yeah. i know.'
'okay~ is not what i was looking for but OKAY!'

and the name a'ai needs to stick! haih. kinda bored of the name ain. (>_<) nothng is wrong with the name. please. i like my name. its just kinda too common. huhu. i gotta be unique. i gotta be me. not mom. or abg adin. or even my sister. hmm. i currently dont thnk i have and identity. not yet anyway. i gotta write my name in history. but how?! haihs.

A'ai Zairi, Type-OFF~
(usually people write pen off but yeah, im typing so its Type -Off. or something in between. im getting wacko. (@_@))

Saturday, December 25, 2010

slesema is flu.

sniff2x. i hate the flu bug. huh. i got mine last Monday. the day that we came back from penang. haih. this is really stressful. sometimes i tak dpt nikmat tarik nafas. know why? coz my nose is blocked. haillaaa. i think this allergies or something. its getting close to the school re-opening date. classic school allergies. haha.

It got worse when last Wednesday the boxes from Machang came and me and mum cleared up some boxes to be put in the kitchen. damn. sneezing like hell on Wednesday. then! mum got this new tea thing. its called Green Tea Colostrum. (click to know more) mum bought this for her coz based on chemah's recommendation, its 'mengenyangkan' and sihat. but~! mum forced me to drink it. hailaa. knw how it taste? like susu org tua type of tase. its tepung-gy and tawar. i thnk it tasted like Anlene. yuck~ i was like, Gagg, SERIOUSLY?!. (going green) and its kinda weird that when u wanna drink it. u have to use warm water (not hot water) and stir it with plastic spoon. weird? yeah. i know. ive been forced to drink it every morn since wednesday. Ack, (green).

these few days mum havent been feeling so good. hurm. Cian mama. mum said tht doc diagnosed that in her blood cholesterol naik. i pun agak confuse disitu but okay. blood cholesterol naik hence, the Green Tea thing. tapi i gak yg kena paksa minum. couldnt understand my mum sometimes. haih. currently, mum is lying down sb tak larat.
ni dh nk masuk musim skolah dah ni. klu mama xsihat lg cmne. adeih. this morn, she was better. and knw wht she did? she washed the porch with the steam vacuum. say whaa...?? bende tu kan berat. so this evening she buat kona baring la. haila. mama ku syg~ tu nasib i tolong gak tu. if i didnt help cmna la~

Owh, funny story. mama yesterday. she asked me to get out of my room and be SEEN! so yea. i went out of the house and lepak with papa at the koi pond (alongside bubu watching from afar). so dlm penat2x tu. mama pun kuar. so it was like a family outing ar
lebey kureng. haha. and that night, mum kicked me out of my room. for the same reasons. so, i went out the room. but i went out and lepak la. pastu, mama masuk bilik tido. say whaaa...???? u wanted me to be SEEN! but then u tidoq camna.........??? mama...oh.....mama.
that is a picture of her with Qayyim. Our couzin. not our youngest brother or anything. haha. among the candid pictures of mama. u know. mum is not a children fave. cz shes kinda garang. tapi! Qayyim ni lain sket. nak plak kat mama mse dlu dia kecik. sgt pelik. hahah.

anyway! this post is about my flu. reverse2x.
about the green tea thing. i think it works a bit. haha. kurang sket mucus nye. tapi the taste is like. UUrrggghHHHH~ GAG. in the mornings, the mucus isnt that bad. at night is when there's alot of mucus. i hate it. huh. maybe coz its cold. sometimes it dawned to me that, if i dont bathe the mucus wouldnt be bad. but then. ew. i still bathe okey!!! just not as long as before and using hot water. nasib papa memahami about anak nya yg xsuka mandi air sejuk. haha. spoiled girl much? no lar~ sume anak papa and mama camtu. (yes im referring to u guys too, kak uda, abg adin and abg ki)

okeyh. tu je utk mlm ni. i think i have crapped enough for everyone to see. haha.


Wednesday, December 22, 2010

specs or contacts?

the million dollar question.

should A'ai wearing glasses or contacts?

this is me wearing glasses........

and me.
wearing purple contacts.

which one?
be honest!!!!!

kindly comment.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

rants by a teen.

OKEH! need to write something or else the blog becomes lifeless. wahaha. about what though? what about this.
what does this word to you? a house? a building? hmmmmmm..........
to me this word means a building that holds memories. it doesnt need to be a big house or even a complete one. its just a building that you think of when people say 'hey, do you miss home?'. i currently have a home and a house.

my home is still at Penang. 2026, ibu pejabat veterinar bukit tengah. :) this is were i first learned how to ride a bike, scratched my knee (big time), talk to animals (hahaha, as if), play ping pong, learn the meanings of friendship. (>_<) i grew up there. i had spent 7 years at that particular house. then i had to move to kelantan. i was really2x emotional everytime i had to pack my stuff away and when i watched my parents clear the house. i remembered, i always procrastinate packing coz in my heart i hoped that my dad changed his mind and didnt want to leave penang. but in the end, it didnt happen that way. we ended up moving anyways. i wrote 'NAZ and FAMILY wuz ERE (1994-2010)' at all the doors efore i leave. i was teary when i left the house. my heart was at the bottom pit of my stomach. i was mostly quiet when i was in the car. so yeah. then i moved to the first house i ever had.

a house. huh. well its actually just a building that i live in it. ahak. kinda harsh but yeah. its just a building. i hated my old house at Cherang'. its so hot and damp. it always had the funky smell that i never got rid of. but then, at one point of a stressful Form 5, i went HOME. Home in kelantan. ahaha. took a long time though. but i still dont like it and i missed my old house dearly. but what to do. my home had already became into someone else's house and home. and this person had turned my white home into his peachy paradise. (say what?!). yeah, he painted the house peachy. (@_@)

okay. that is the cherang house. now im at a new house. now, this time it felt like home. :)
not coz its new but somehow it reminds me of d Home in Penang. but the colour of the house aint really my taste, but yeah. this i can call home. :) maybe coz i dnt really live here so much since im at college now. but you somehow need a nest to come back to rightt..? so yeah. this is a nest for me. compared to the cherang house. this is much better. though, if it was given a choice. id still choose penang. =)

haihs.... ranting without any purpose at late night. when i needed to sleep coz tomorrow is a another day! BUT! i wanna finish writn a post. damn, i should start a ASK ME! column. hahah. coz apparently im d cupid/LOVE Doctor/heartbreak officer/marriage counsellor n friendship beholder. (@_@) yeah. me! apparently, im eay for people to talk to and! i can keep secrets. mwahahahahahaa... so yeah. ima make an ASK ME! or I CAN HELP! column next. haha. kidly comment on my idea. (^_^)v


Wednesday, December 8, 2010


i wanna write somethng. but i dont know what. ahahaha. im currently in front of my computer, waiting for somethng to download while buffering some vids. haha. yeah, i know it would take a long time if i buffer vids while downloading but im bored! and my kpop supply isnt enough. huhu. Luna princess isnt here remember? (that reminds me, i have got o text oppa on how its going. Dang its taking a long time.) (>_<)

im thinking. what is the purpose of my blog? just a place for me to write stuffs? and what kind of stuffs? i dont exactly put pictures do i? its all in wording. im still a rookie at this but i wanna make it work. i aint perfectionist i like having things the right way. i dont like to just take things easily. a blog is a big responsibility. its a window to a persons soul sometimes when they write about their feelings. (cewaahh) and now, im thinking, is this a window to my feelings? can people actually peek inside my head and see what i had gone through? it sounds a bit philosophical but hey, its just something that i have to know. hmmmm.

right. reverse back to the point of writing a blog. okay, boring people just stick to the norm and write what they are feeling or use a blog as their online and non private journal. but some people wrote fictional stories. now these people are very intresting. instead of knowing WHAT they do or did. we can figure out WHO they are. because writing comes from the heart and mind. it flows like water. good writers can put itty bitty bits of themselves in their pieces of writing. to me when reading a fictional story, im learning to know who is the writer. it doesnt matter whether its a famous book or just someone on a blog writing a simple fantasy story. i like figuring out who the writers are besides knowing the ending of a good book. same thing with someone writing fictional stories on a blog. i sometimes can determine how he/she thinks. unless its someone i know. i just match it with my knowledge of them. :)

im weird. i know. sometimes i can determine someones charater by looking at their shoes! yeah, maybe it could be considered as stereotyping but sometimes i just cant help it! i see a mid 30s lady tutting down the street wearing heels/stilletoes, i think she must be someone in power. married. hardcore. strict. dont let anything get in her way. yeah. abit stereotyping but i dont judge. i used to look or glance ot peoples shoes just for the likes of it. and dont ask me how i judge my boys. first i look at their feet. second is secret. :P

among all the superpowers in the world, i would like to have d mind reading power. (no connections what so ever to the other person). no like seriously, wouldnt it be cool? you would know what the other person is thinking about. then you would know what to say next without hurting him/her. you would be the best daughter/son/friend/dad/mom/boss/colleague/etc2c. fun no? but the downside is. you can NEVER trust anyone. because everyone got their deep and dark secrets or intentions lurking in their minds. if you know whats in their mind then, there is a chance we would be very judgmental when being with the person. 'fun' huh?

would you be popular but hated or invisible but have a few good friends?
yeah. lots of people (that i know) would vote for a few good friends. i would too. but, yeah. being popular is fun. people would know your name and you wouldnt be alone. but truth is, popular people are always alone. they jump from one friend to another each day. which one is true? the one who truly understands? i know. coz i used to be 'popular'. i like the attention but yeah, its confusing sometimes.

yeah. this is just a bored rant from a bored teen with too much time on her hands. i should be sleeping now. its 1.3 AM (local time). most of my friends are asleep. including the particular one. haha. but of course. my brother n sis in law wouldnt be asleep now. it should be 5pm over there. ahaha. like i know. (@_@) like i said. its just some ramblings of a teen that wants to write something meaningful and profitable like Harry Potter or Shopaholic series. hahah. as if?! im not the least talented as they are. okay fine, yes, i can write but just short stories. i cant turn my 3 page fiction to a 1000++ page fiction without it getting boring at some parts. i know, i tried. huhu.

okey! stopping now. maybe?

Sunday, December 5, 2010


sye eksiden td!


kejadian berlaku
kat lorong tepi caltex otw ke umah chemah.
setelah ak msk lorong,
ad r kete pajero mitsubishi dpn ak nih.
tiba2x je break!
nasib jarak ak ngn dia agak jauh
so ak pun sempat ar Emergency break
kat sini ak dah tarik nafas.
FUHH.. nasib xkena.
ni ak x expect langsung.
setelah break tu en, kete tu pun reverse!
ak dah mula panik doh!
mama pun panik skali.
dua-dua pun panik.
masa ni ak duk tekan hon sekuat aty
byk kali ak tekan.
sampai la
kete ktrg berlangaar bak 2atom yang berlaga.

setelah uncle tu kedepan.
dia pun kuar dari kereta lalu berkata dgn selamba kpd mama
'la, sya xsangka pulak ad kete kat blkng saya. sya nk ckp ngn istri saya tuh td'
-sambil menunjuk ke kereta BMW yg berlalu seblh ktrg-
mama pun membalas
'kalau nak bercakap punn knp berhenti tgh jalan pastu reverse xtgk blakang plak tuuh?'
balsan nya ialah
'sya xtau. pastu awk pun xhon'
ni aku balas.
'eh! sya hon la uncle@ byk kali!'
uncle tu pun cakap
'owh awk ker? ingtkn istri sya yg hon td'
masa ni ak dah blurr.
biar betik uncle ni!
mama dan uncle tu je yg berbicara,
ak just jd pendengar dan pemerhati yg setia
setelah beberapa ketka,
istri uncle tu pun dtg~
perbincangan pun masih berlaku.

ak rs dlm 5 min gak ar
org tua2x berbicara pasal kete tu.
pastu mama minta num uncle tu
sb nk claim nti repair
uncle tu pun bagi skali ngn num workshop dia
uncle ni kasi syarat ku nk dia bayar
iatu ktrg kn pg ke workshop dia klu nk repair.
byk songeh la plak uncle neh
mama pun malas bhasa n cakap
and sume bersurai

kejadian ini berlaku dalam ujan yg xlebat sgt

tp mama pun ckp
xtau bila nk hntar kete tu ke workshop sb kte tu penting
kete merc xd kat umah sb anta workshop td pagi
so ad stu je r kte kat umah.
so kte civic taley ar pg mna2x
papa lak kat KL
esk bru balik.
masa ni la mcm2x jadi

nilah first time ak eksiden smpi kete kemik
abes record aku sbg pemandu berhemah
aku rsa pengalaman ini memberi pengajaran kpd diriku
apa dia?
aku sendri xtau lagi
bila ak dah dpt mikir aku post lak k?


-a'ai zairi-

Saturday, November 27, 2010

kn harrassed?!

arini aku hangin ngn sorang mamat ni la en.
ak ase ak xbuat salah pun
tibe2x je attack aku.

meh2x.. kite story cite dlu2x...

aku knal la mamat ni
EX-balak member rapat aku
skang ni dah break dah la diorang ni.
mamat ni mn dia
mula2x ak kenal.
boleh la ak trime dye
mulut manes ar katekan.....
biasak r laki~
apo nok dikato

diorg kapel mse form 5.
ak dlu mcm sepruh tolong je.
sb iyela.
form 5 en. tahun penting beb.
ak tamau la dia terdistct ngn balak ni
pastu he keeps pushing~
siap kenen member kot~!
dia mintak num si member aku ni.
aku dgn berat aty n tangan pun kasi la
diorang pun contact~~
and dalam seminggu kot?
diorang kapel
bapak cepat~!

setelah sebulan lebey diorang kapel
mula lahhhh nampak perangai balak tuh
kuat cemburu.
ske pow dwet
etc2x yg tabest r.
aku dah mula xsuka.
ader member aku neh kesah?
percaye gak ke balak tuh.
pergh.. hangin aku slalu.
sb klu pape, dia pusing dkt aku utk crite
lg la aku xsuka!

after SPM diorng continue lg
ni yg aku puji gak ar
tahan dlm sthn gitu sblm fly ke Uni/Poly masing2x
after a month or two apart
si balak ni curang ngan member aku
member aku ckp ar.
aku bkn pasang spy ke hape.
so diorang break~
so my girl ni heartbreak r en~
aku plak yg console.
but dlm aty aku, aku syukur bahawa diorang dah break
because he is a bad influence.
so in 3-4 moinths budak ni single~
aku pun bahagia~

1 bulan sblm masuk uni/poly.
aku dapat tau bahawa diorang ni kapel balik~
pasal member aku ni aku xtau la nk kate ape
senget? aku ase tak
desperate? aku ase tak
budus? ni sah tak!
tapi diorang stil together.
obviously she wasnt learning from her mistakes
aku hangin dah sini!
bebuih mulut aku pujuk dia dlu!
now dia senang2x je nk kapel balik.
aku ckp simple gini ngn member aku.
'kau dengar cakap dia banding ngan cakap aku.
fine. skg ni. aku kau dah xd pape. anggap kita xpnh kenal.
aku tau balak kau siapa sbnrnya sebalik mulut manis itu.
what he did to you last 3 months, trust me,
he will do it again in the next 3 months
but this time.
i aint gonna be there
u gained what u wanted now, but now u lost me'

kejam x ayat aku?
aku rase pun kejam.
tapi in order to wake her up from her dream
i had to do it!
unfortunately for me, it didnt work
but i just brushed it off and buat dono.
num member aku pun aku delete.

pastu setelah seberapa bulan,
aku pun bahagia~
then, term break~!!
aku dpt mesej ni
'ain, u were right. he did cheat on me
please come back. we r over'
i was like.
kate aritu in love sgt~
muntah pink aku jadi nye~
because aku ni baik la en.
aku pun trima la dia balik.

setelah itu~
aku pun xd la risau sgt.
until term break lg
(banyak situasi berlaku masa term break ehh? hahaha cam lawak ja)
ak ngn budak ni pun kuar la jln2x
bersama member yg lain
aku TERperasan budak ni asyik mesej2x
ngn num yang aku rasa kenal
betull wor~!!
budak mesej ngan ex dya kot!
diorang dah setting nak jumpa situ
senget betul la diorang ni.
aku dah naik malas dah ngn member aku ni
aku pun tarik dia ketepi
and trus sound ar!
dia curang 2 kali.
dan nak ugak budak ni ngn mamat ni
sgt manes mulut si jantan ni
ak dah tak tahan.
aku hantar budak ni balik
and pastu aku dah xcakap dah ngan si minah ni
trus putus.
aku dah tak tahan ngan budak yang tak dengar kata ni
dan ktrg pun xcakap dah la pastu

senyap bapak lama ar.
and then today
out of the blue.
ad num unknown miscal.
ak xkira ak nk letak gak num ni online
supaya sume org bleh kacau dia
attack aku plak.
kate aku sorok kan si member aku
aku mesej pun tak ngn minah tu
suddenly kn ambush gitu
hangin sebadan ar pagi td!
tuduh member aku mcm2x lak tuh
aku plak kn attack skali
mcm2x fitnah ak dpt
free je aku dapat pahala arini
mamat ni
bukan stkat tak percaya
tapi siap tuduh aku macam2x
woi jantan!
tolong la~!
aku dah xd kaitan la ngn dia tuu~!!!!
bazir credit aku je mesej ngan jantan macam kau ni
sebab kau la kawan aku jadi mcm skg

itu lah story ku pd harini......
aku cite ni pun dah rasa sakit aty!
aku membuka line kpd kawan2x ku
sape2x nk mesej ke call num atas tu
but the person on the other line is a slimey git that doesnt have any respect for others.
he doesnt have manners or good persona
feel free to make his life miserable
thank you~

-a'ai zairi-

p/s: sorry for the language used.
im pissed off.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Luna Princess


those who dont know:
Luna Princess Lovely is the name of my external.

i wanted to watch some movies on my external the other day
i couldnt detect it on my laptop!


i tried lots of time
it couldnt be detected.
all my movies~


ill be going to CARIKOMPUTER.COM
on saturday
in order to set some stuff straight.


semua ada!

a'ai zairi out~

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Tied Together

Tied Together

By Aarif Subzposh

I am tied to my jobs and duties
and I try to keep my soul from the Lord's furies.
I strive to give to forgive and to gift my monies

But God lets me make mistakes that I unknowingly undertake,
I know that with each one I realize I reach a higher state.
And that I am meant to learn and contemplate

Islam teaches me how to forgive
but how many Muslims today have been taught to live?
Extremism of both sides are spreading active.

They have forgotten moderation, only limiting themselves
when they could be at the level of the angels.
working in a balanced way to fill up the dry wells

to educate, propagate, and contemplate
their own religion, for only with knowledge can they be great.

We are servants who should never hesitate

when the true peaceful call of Almighty Allah comes.
Then our Ummah shall hopefully be one.
A family, like it was when it started, Brothers and Sisters together under Almighty Allah's sun.


music is my life

music is my life

premise 1: no music, no life

premise 2: no life, no happiness

conclusion: music is happiness

This picture reminds me of myself.

I always had pictured myself as a music girl.

I am always a fan of good music.

My favourite genre of music are pop, hip hop, reggae, blues and also jazz.

Since I was a child, I wanted to learn on how to play a musical instrument.

But I did not get the chance because my parents are sometimes too busy to send to classes.

No worries though, I can live with only music in my ears and it doesn’t have to be me playing.

whenever I am free or bored, headphones would always be in my ears

even when I m stressed out, headphones would also be blasting in my ear

sometimes im worried that my ear could get damaged due to all the sounds


my Top 20 songs that I m listening now are as follows:

1. Look into my eyes – Outlandish

2. Laskar Pelangi - Nidji

3. I wanna – All American Rejects

4. Hoedown Throwdown – Miley Cyrus

5. Greek Goddess – Yuna

6. Gemuruh – Faizal Tahir

7. Butterfly Fly Away – Miley Cyrus

8. Bencinta – Faizal Tahir

9. Aicha – Outlandish

10. 1,2,3,4 – Plain White Tees

11. Musnah – Andra and the Backbones

12. My All – Mariah Carey

13. Revolusi – Bunkface

14. Sempurna – Andra and the Backbones

15. Senyuman Ragamu – Gerhana Ska Cinta

16. Sonata musim Salji – Hazami

17. Callin’ you – Outlandish

18. When Angel Lower Their Wings – Outlandish

19. Wherever – Outlandish

20. You belong with me – Taylor Swift

I believe there should be more…

BUT if I list them all, I would take up one whole paper…


one more reason I liked that picture is because

It somehow shows the ‘EMO’-ness of the girl..

Sometimes I really am an ‘emo’ child..

I don’t know where I got it from but

when the feelings come, I can’t stop it

when I say I feel emo,

I meant I felt alone and no one is there to share it with me

maybe it’s the teenage hormones that people keep telling about..


Something to think and improve...




Life is interesting

Life is good

Life is hard

Life is true

But its always good to have you

Beside me always

Holding me tight

Never letting go

Even when I say so

I love you so much

No normal words can explain

Not even literary words can express it

The only small yet perfect word is


Only 3 simple words

Can express it

I hope I can elaborate but no

It is as simple as it is

Perfection in 3

I can’t wait to see you again

I can’t wait for you to hold me again

I can’t wait to help you again

I can’t wait to take care of you again

I can’t wait to get home

Wait for me

Ill be there soon

Please be there

I want to see you again

I miss you dear parents


that was just something that i wrote when i was in first semester.

i wrote that because i was feeling frustrated due to the fact that i couldnt go back earlier and for a longer period because of the MERDEKA celebrations

imagine this:

i didnt go back and rest for 6 months at that time

yes people SIX!

know why?

coz i went to IPG straight away after matrics.

i mean,

i checked out KMK today and the registration date for IPG is tomorrow


thats how it happened.

ended up not seeing my house for 6 months.

i was so upset and angry FURIOUS!



i really wanna write something that is meaningfull.

but my mind is currently blank.

maybe due the fact that im writing this at 12.49 am

(not that late but i had a long day)


keep up with the next post coz i hope that i can keep it intrsting


-a'ai zairi-

Friday, November 19, 2010




Satu lagi kesilapan penganjur pembohongan perkembangan sejarah dan masyarakat adalah dakwaan bahawa agama yang menjadi nilai tertinggi masyarakat juga turut berubah. Dakwaan ini dikemukakan pada kurun ke-19 dan amat disokong oleh materialis dan ateis. Tetapi tiada penemuan arkeologi untuk membuktikannya dan ia kekal sebagai spekulasi.

Mereka juga tidak mempunyai bukti sokongan bahawa manusia purbakala mengamal agama puak primitif dan menyembah banyak , dan bahawa agama hak yang diturunkan untuk semua manusia sejak zaman Nabi Adam (as) dan berdasarkan kesatuan Ilahi hanya wujud kemudiannya. Sesetengah evolusionis cuba menggambarkan dakwaan ini sebagai fakta sejarah, tetapi mereka silap besar. Sebagaimana teori Darwin tentang evolusi biologi adalah penipuan, begitu juga dengan teori evolusi agama yang muncul hasil pegaruh teori Darwin.


Charles Darwin

Sekitar satu setengah abad yang lalu apabila buku Origin of Species Darwin masih lagi dalam edisi pertamanya, idea evolusi mendapat sokongan hebat dari kalangan materialis dan ateis. Beberapa orang pemikir di zaman itu menganggap bahawa setiap kejadian dalam sejarah manusia dapat dijelaskan melalui evolusi dengan menyatakan bahawa setiap sesuatu bermula daripada asas, peringkat primitif dan berkembang menjadi lebih sempurna.

Kesilapan ini berlaku dalam banyak bidang. Dalam ekonomi contohnya, Marxisme mendakwa bahawa perkembangan sedemikian sememangnya telah dijangka dan setiap orang akhirnya akan memeluk fahaman komunisme. Pengalaman telah membuktikan bahawa ini hanyalah impian dan pendapat Marxisme langsung tidak mencerminkan kebenaran.

Dalam cabang psikologi pula, Sigmund Freud menyatakan bahawa manusia adalah spesis yang amat berkembang, tetapi tindakan mereka secara psikologinya masih dipengaruhi oleh sebab-sebab yang sama dengan apa yang berlaku pada moyang primitifnya. Kesalahan besar ini telah ditolak secara saintifik melalui kajian psikologi, sekaligus membuktikan bahawa pandangan asas Freudianisme tiada asas saintifik.

Arena sosiologi, antropologi dan sejarah juga telah dijangkiti oleh teori evolusi, tetapi pengetahuan yang diperoleh daripada penemuan kurun terbaru telah menunjukkan bahawa pengaruh ini langsung tidak produktif.

Persamaan ciri yang dipunyai oleh semua teori evolusi ialah penentangan mereka terhadap sebarang kepercayaan terhadap Allah. Inilah akar fahaman di sebalik idea salah evolusi agama. Menurut pandangan salah Herbert Spencer, antara orang kuat penganjur pembohongan ini, manusia purbakala tiada agama. Agama pertama kononnya bermula dengan penyembahan terhadap mayat. Ahli antropologi lainnya yang menyokong penipuan evolusi agama menyatakan pandangan yang berbeza-beza. Ada yang percaya bahawa agama bersumberkan animisme (kepercayaan kepada makhluk halus dan roh); ada juga berpendapat bahawa agama muncul daripada totemisme (menyembah lambang seseorang, kumpulan atau objek). Seorang lagi ahli antropologi, E.B. Taylor, percaya bahawa agama berkembang daripada animisme kepada manisme (menyembah nenek moyang), politeisme (percaya kepada banyak tuhan) dan berakhir dengan monoteisme (percaya kepada Keesaan).
Teori ini dimulakan oleh ahli antropologi berfahaman ateis pada kurun ke-19 dan sejak itu telah diperjuang dan diterbitkan dalam pelbagai senario. Tetapi ia tidak lebih daripada satu pembohongan. Jumpaan arkeologi dan sejarah bertentangan dengan pandangan yang dikemukakan oleh saintis tersebut, iaitu agama monoteisme sejak awal lagi telah diwahyukan Ilahi kepada manusia menerusi nabi dan rasul-Nya. Tetapi pada masa yang sama, penyelewengan dan kepercayaan karut telah muncul seiring dengan agama sebenar. Sebagaimana manusia hari ini percaya kepada Tuhan yang Satu dan hidup mengikut ajaran-Nya, begitu juga dengan mereka yang secara salah menyembah berhala kayu dan batu, atau syaitan, atau moyang mereka dan juga pelbagai semangat, binatang, Matahari, Bulan dan bintang-bintang. Kebanyakan masyarakat ini tidak mundur, sebaliknya hidup dalam keadaan serba maju.

Sepanjang sejarah, terdapat juga mereka yang mengingkari ajaran agama hak yang diwahyukan Allah dan cuba menghapuskan nilai-nilai moralnya. Al-Quran memberitahu kita tentang sesetengah manusia yang mahu mencampur kepercayaan dan amalan karut dan agama sebenar yang diperturunkan lalu akhirnya mengubah dan memusnahkannya:

Kecelakaan besar bagi orang-orang yang menulis Kitab Taurat dengan tangan mereka (lalu mengubah Kalam Allah dengan rekaan-rekaan mereka), kemudian mereka berkata: "Ini ialah dari sisi Allah", supaya mereka dengan perbuatan itu dapat membeli keuntungan dunia yang sedikit. Maka kecelakaan besar bagi mereka disebabkan apa yang ditulis oleh tangan mereka dan kecelakaan besar bagi mereka dari apa yang mereka usahakan itu. (Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 79)

Inilah sebabnya sebahagian orang yang percaya kepada kewujudan dan Keesaan Allah dan patuh kepada ajaran-Nya akhirnya meninggalkan agama sebenar. Maka terhasillah kepercayaan dan amalan yang menyimpang. Dengan kata lain, tidak sepertimana yang dinyatakan oleh sesetengah orang, evolusi agama tidak pernah berlaku; tetapi agama hak pada waktu-waktu tertentu telah diseleweng hasil daripada kemunculan kepercayaan karut.


Di abad ke-20, kajian penting telah dijalankan berkenaan dengan asal-susul agama, syukur kini telah dietahui bahawa tiada nilai saintifik dalam dakwaan tentang evolusi agama, dan pandangan tersebut sekadar khayalan belaka. Kajian ke atas agama-agama di dunia oleh ahli antropologi terkemuka seperti Andrew Lang dan Wilhelm Schmidt membuktikan yang agama tidak pernah berubah; sebaliknya telah diseleweng dari semasa ke semasa. Keputusan kajian Schmidt telah diterbitkan secara terperinci dalam majalah berkala, Anthropos.

Hasil kajian yang dijalankan antara tahun 1900-1935 menunjukkan bahawa pandangan tentang perubahan agama adalah tidak benar sama sekali, dan menyebabkab ramai ahli antropologi mengabaikan pendapat-pendapat evolusi mereka. Walau pun dengan adanya semua fakta saintifik dan sejarah, sesetengah ateis yang radikal tetap mempertahankan pandangan rapuh ini.


The picture to the side shows a "god of lightning," one of the Sumerians' false deities that emerged when the one true Divine belief became corrupted.

Wilayah Mesopotamia yang terletak tidak jauh dari peradaban masyarakat Mesir purba juga dikenali sebagai 'sumber peradaban'.

Kebanyakan maklumat penting yang ditemui hasil kajian arkeologi di kawasan ini lahir dari penemuan berkenaan kepercayaan agama masyarakat Sumeria. Beberapa prasasti menceritakan tentang aktiviti sejumlah besar dewa. Semakin banyak informasi diperoleh dan penyelidik menemui kaedah lebih baik untuk mentafsir data, beberapa maklumat tentang kepercayaan agama masyarakat ini juga mula ditemui. Perkara yang paling menarik ialah lebih daripada sejumlah dewa yang mereka percayai, mereka juga sebenarnya percaya kepada Tuhan yang Satu. Bukti sejarah menunjukkan bahawa agama hak sentiasa wujud. Halaman berikutnya akan mengkaji peradaban Sumeria, Mesir, India dan Eropah serta tamadun Aztek, Inca, Maya untuk membuktikan bahawa mereka semua menyembah Tuhan yang Satu dan agama yang benar disampaikan kepada mereka melalui pesuruh-Nya. Stephen Langdon dari Universiti Oxford adalah penyelidik pertama yang mendapati bahawa politeisme pada asalnya mempunyai monoteisme. Pada tahun 1931, beliau memaklumkan hasil kajiannya kepada dunia saintifik dengan menyatakan bahawa ia di luar jangkaan dan sangat berlawanan dengan pemahaman evolusionis sebelum ini. Langdon menjelaskan hasil penemuannya sebagai berikut:

... sejarah peradaban manusia yang paling tua adalah pengurangan yang pantas daripada monoteisme kepada politeisme melampau dan kepercayaan terhadap semangat jahat yang berleluasa.73

Lima tahun kemudian, Langdon menyatakan perkara berikut dalam The Scotsman:

Bukti itu dengan jelas merujuk kepada monoteisme asli, saki-baki prasasti dan penulisan oleh masyarakat Semitik purba juga menunjukkan ... monoteisme, dan punca penyembahan berhala oleh masyarakat Ibrani dan beberapa agama Semitik lain kini tertolak sepenuhnya.74

Penggalian di Tell Asmar moden, tapak bandar masyarakat Sumeria yang bermula sejak tahun 3,000 BC, menemui hasil yang amat berpadanan dengan pendapat Langdon. Pengarah penggalian itu, Henry Frankfort, memberi laporan rasmi berikut:

Sebagai tambahan kepada hasil yang memberangsangkan, penggalian kita juga telah membuktikan satu fakta baru yang mulai dari saat ini perlu diberi perhatian oleh pelajar-pelajar yang mengkaji agama masyarakat Babylon. Kita telah dapati untuk pertama kalinya bahawa unsur-unsur agama sempurna dalam kedudukan sosialnya.

Kita mempunyai sejumlah besar bukti logik, diperoleh daripada jumlah yang hampir sama kuil dan rumah yang diduduki oleh mereka yang menyembah di dalam kuil. Maka kita dapati bahawa jumpaan yang mereka kaji sendiri adalah tidak mungkin.

Sebagai contoh, kami menemui bahawa perlambangan yang terdapat pada beberapa cap silinder, yang sering dikaitkan dengan pelbagai , semuanya boleh disesuaikan ke dalam gambaran konsisten yang mana tunggal yang disembah di kuil inilah yang membentuk asasnya. Jadi kelihatan pada zaman awal ini, kepelbagaian aspeknya tidak dianggap sebagai dewa-dewa berbeza di dalam kuil purba masyarakat Sumero-Akkadia.75

When Sumerian tablets were translated, it emerged that the large number of false deities in the Babylonian pantheon emerged as a result of the gradual misinterpretation of the various names and titles of a single Deity.

Jumpaan Frankfort mendedahkan fakta-fakta penting tentang cara kemunculan sistem kepercayaan karut dan politeisme. Teori evolusi agama berpendapat bahawa politeisme timbul apabila manusia mula menyembah semangat jahat yang mewakili kuasa-kuasa alam. Tetapi ianya tidak benar. Sepanjang perjalanan sejarah, manusia membangun pemahaman berbeza terhadap sifat-sifat Tuhan yang Satu, lalu akhirnya membawa kepada penyimpangan kepercayaan terhadap Keesaan Tuhan. Kepelbagaian sifat Tuhan yang Satu ini bertukar menjadi beberapa fahaman lain.

Lama sebelum Langdon membuat terjemahan batu-batu bersurat masyarakat Sumeria, seorang penyelidik bernama Friedrich Delitzsch telah membuat penemuan yang sama. Beliau mendapati bahawa kesemua dewa dalam sembahan masyarakat Babylon datang dari bermacam-macam karakter Marduk yang mereka sembah sebagai dewa pada masa itu. Kajian membuktikan bahawa kepercayaan terhadap Marduk adalah hasil daripada merosotnya kepercayaan terhadap satu Tuhan sebenar.

Marduk adalah dewa yang mempunyai banyak nama. Dia dipanggil Ninib atau 'Yang Punya Kuasa', Nergal atau 'Tuhan Peperangan', Bel atau 'Yang Punya Ketuhanan', Nebo atau 'Tuhan Para Nabi', Sin atau 'Cahaya Kegelapan', Shamash atau 'Tuhan Yang Serba Adil', dan Addu atau 'Tuhan Hujan'. Lama-kelamaan, sifat-sifat Marduk ini akhirnya diasing darinya dan dijadikan dewa-dewa yang lain. Cara yang sama juga berlaku pada Tuhan Matahari dan Tuhan Bulan, iaitu dewa palsu yang lahir daripada imaginasi manusia. Kepercayaan terhadap Marduk, bersamaan dengan namanya yang lain, menunjukkan bahawa sistem kepercayaan ini sebenarnya dikembangkan dari masa ke masa hasil penyimpangan kepercayaan terhadap Tuhan yang Satu.

The false deity Marduk, from the Babylonian pantheon

Kita juga dapat melihat kesan penyelewengan yang sama dalam masyarakat Mesir purba. Ramai penyelidik telah menemui bahawa masyarakat Mesir purba merupakan pengamal monoteisme pertama, tetapi kemudian merombak sistem ini dan menukarkannya kepada Sabeisme, atau menyembah matahari. M. de Rouge menulis:

Adalah amat nyata bahawa bahagian yang luhur dari agama masyarakat Mesir secara relatifnya bukan hasil terbaru proses perkembangan atau penghapusan daripada yang lebih kotor. Bahagian luhur tersebut dibuktikan purba; dan tahap terakhir agama masyarakat Mesir yang terkenal di kalangan penulis Greek dan Latin, bukan ahli kitab atau Kristian, adalah yang paling kotor dan rosak.76

Sir Flinders Petrie, seorang ahli antropologi mengatakan bahawa kepercayaan karut dan politeisme timbul hasil daripada kerosakan beransur-ansur kepercayaan kepada satu Tuhan. Tambahan pula, beliau berkata bahawa proses kerosakan ini boleh dilihat dalam masyarakat hari ini seperti juga masyarakat di masa lalu:

Dalam agama dan teologi purba, terdapat pengkelasan Tuhan yang berbeza-beza. Sesetengah bangsa seperti Hindu moden, tenggelam dalam timbunan Tuhan dan dewa-dewa yang terus-menerus bertambah. Yang lain ... bukan menyembah Tuhan yang agung, tetapi sejumlah kepercayaan animisme, syaitan. ...

Konsep ketuhanan berkembang daripada penyembahan roh-roh jahat sebegitu kita akan dapati politeisme mendahului monoteisme ... Apa yang kita perolehi sebenarnya bertentangan, monoteisme ialah tahap terawal yang boleh dikesan dalam teologi. ...77

The pharaoh Akhenaten believed in a single God and had all idols destroyed. He expressed his belief in these words in a hymn: How many are Your deeds, though hidden from sight, o Sole God beside whom there is none! You made the earth as You wished, You alone, All peoples, herds, and flocks; All upon earth that walk on legs, all on high that fly on wings...

Anthropological research has shown that polytheistic beliefs emerged along with the distortion of monotheistic faith. This is one proof that no such process as religious "evolution" ever took place, as some would have us believe.


The superstitious Hindu religion has many false deities. However, research has shown that in the early days of Indian culture people believed in a single God.

Walaupun tamadun India tidak setua peradaban di Timur Tengah, ia merupakan antara tamadun tertua yang masih lagi hidup di dunia.

Dalam paganisme masyarakat India, jumlah dewa-dewa tidak terkira banyaknya. Selepas satu kajian yang lama, Andrew Lang mendapati bahawa agama yang menyembah banyak wujud di India hasil daripada proses sama yang berlaku di Timur Tengah.

Edward McCrady yang menulis tentang kepercayaan agama masyarakat India, mendapati Rig Veda menunjukkan bahawa pada waktu dulu, dewa-dewa hanya dianggap sebagai sebahagian jelmaan Tuhan yang pelbagai.78

Dalam gita puja Rig Veda, kita dapat melihat kesan kehancuran agama yang memuja satu . Seorang lagi pengkaji dalam bidang ini, Max Müller, bersetuju bahawa pada awalnya, wujud kepercayaan kepada satu :

Terdapat monoteisme yang mendahului politeisme Veda; dan walaupun dalam pemujaan pelbagai , ingatan bahawa Tuhan itu Satu hadir dalam seruan pemujaan, seperti langit biru dilindungi awan yang sedang berarak.79

Maka, jelas bahawa evolusi agama tidak berlaku, sebaliknya manusialah yang menokok-tambah perkara-perkara tahyul ke dalam agama sebenar, atau menolak sesetengah suruhan dan larangan - yang akhirnya menyebabkan penyelewengan terhadap kepercayaan agama.


In his book The Religion of Greece in Prehistoric Times, Axel W. Persson, a researcher into ancient Greek religious beliefs, says: ". . . there later developed a larger number of more or less significant figures which we meet with in Greek religious myths."

Kita dapat melihat kesan pencemaran yang sama dalam kepercayaan masyarakat-masyarakat Eropah di zaman silam. Axel W. Persson, seorang penyelidik paganisme Greek purba telah menulis dalam bukunya yang bertajuk The Religion of Greece in Prehistoric Times:

. kemudian berkembang sejumlah besar dewa yang kita temui dalam mitos agama masyarakat Greek. Pada pandangan saya, variasi mereka yang bertambah dipengaruhi oleh pelbagai nama sembahan yang berasal daripada satu dewa yang sama. 80

Kesan pengubahan yang sama juga boleh dilihat di Itali. Selepas mengkaji carta Iguvine yang ditemui dari zaman Etruscan, seorang ahli arkeologi bernama Irene Rosenzweig menyimpulkan bahawa “dewa-dewa dibezakan oleh sifat mereka, yang masing-masing kemudiannya dikenali sebagai kuasa suci yang tersendiri.” 81

Kesimpulannya, semua bukti antropologi dan arkeologi kurun terakhir menunjukkan bahawa sepanjang sejarah, masyarakat pada mulanya percaya terhadap Keesaan Tuhan tetapi mengubah kepercayaan ini dari masa ke masa. Mula-mula, manusia percaya kepada Tuhan yang menciptakan setiap yang ada daripada tiada, Tuhan yang melihat dan mengetahui segalanya dan Tuhan kepada seluruh alam. Lama-kelamaan, nama-nama Tuhan disalah anggap sebagai dewa-dewa yang berbeza, akhirnya manusia mula menyembah kesemua dewa palsu ini. Agama yang benar ialah penyembahan terhadap Tuhan yang Satu. Fahaman politeisme berkembang hasil daripada penyelewengan agama sebenar yang telah diwahyukan Ilahi kepada manusia sejak zaman Nabi Adam (as) lagi.


Apabila kita melihat nilai-nilai budaya dan agama masyarakat di pelbagai kawasan dunia, kita dapati mereka mempunyai persamaan. Kesemua masyarakat ini mungkin tidak dapat berkongsi budaya, tetapi mereka percaya terhadap makhluk seperti malaikat, syaitan dan jin yang hidup di alam berbeza. Mereka percaya pada kehidupan selepas mati, bahawa manusia diciptakan daripada tanah; dan penyembahan mereka mempunyai banyak elemen yang sama. Misalannya, bahtera Nabi Nuh (as) tercatat dalam rekod masyarakat Sumeria, agama bangsa Wales, dan di dalam beberapa inskripsi masyarakat Cina dan agama masyarakat Lithuania purba.

Ini cuma satu bukti bahawa satu dewa yang berkuasa - iaitu Allah, Tuhan Seluruh Alam - telah mewahyukan moral-moral keagamaan. Di seluruh dunia, budaya pernah disangka sebagai agama yang muncul dari tempat agung yang sama, mendedahkan kewujudan dewa tunggal. Tuhan kita telah menunjukkan Diri-Nya dalam setiap perjalanan sejarah melalui hamba-hamba yang dipilih dan dimuliakan-Nya; dan melalui mereka Dia telah menurunkan agama terpilih untuk manusia. Pada wahyu terakhir yang tercatat dalam Al-Quran, Allah memberitahu bahawa "...tiap-tiap umat (yang telah lalu) ada Nabinya yang memimpin ke jalan yang benar." (Surah ar-Ra'd, ayat 7).Dalam ayat lain kita diberitahu bahawa Dia mengutus pesuruh-Nya kepada semua bangsa manusia untuk mengingatkan mereka:

Dan tiadalah Kami membinasakan mana-mana negeri (yang telah dibinasakan itu), melainkan setelah diutus kepadanya lebih dahulu, Rasul-rasul pemberi amaran. Memperingatkan mereka dan Kami tidak sekali-kali berlaku zalim. (Surah asy-Syu'araa', ayat 208-209)

Kesemua pesuruh ini sentiasa mengajak manusia percaya kepada Keesaan Allah, menyembah hanya kepada-Nya, serta membuat kebaikan dan menjauhi larangan-Nya. Manusia akan mendapat kesejahteraan melalui ketaatan kepada para nabi dan rasul yang dipilih dan dirahmati Allah, dan patuh kepada kitab suci yang ditinggalkan sebagai warisan. Rasul terakhir yang diutus Allah sebagai rahmat untuk seluruh alam ialah Nabi Muhammad (saw); dan Al-Quran sebagai kitab suci terakhir yang selamanya berada di bawah lindungan Allah ialah panduan sebenar kemanusiaan.